The Dark Side

I am so tired. Pregnancy is hard on this body. When I'm not pregnant with my hormones wreaking havoc on the entire system and when I'm not fighting the same effects brought on by my IUD, I do very well. I get up early (like 5:30am), shower, exercise, read my Bible all before the kids get up. I teach a little and we look at books together and we operate on a schedule. I try to have dinner ready or in progress when Brian gets home. This is definitely not the case right now.

Thankfully, I seem to be over the morning/all day sickness. But I am still so tired. I thought this was supposed to be getting better? I'm hoping for increased energy in a couple of weeks when the second trimester starts officially. I do predict we will have a new baby in 6 months, give or take a day or 2.

I know that nearly as soon as this baby is out I will be a new person, with renewed energy and purpose. And organized. Just right now, there is paper piled on every surface that needs to be handled, laundry in the dryer and the washer, laundry that needs to be put away and laundry that needs to be washed. The kitchen needs to be cleaned in the worst way and I need a plan for dinner. I have 2 quilts that need to be finished and a new one that I have started that I need to have finished by March so I'll have time to have it quilted and bound.

And all the while, the kids minds are rotting right out of their heads because I have been allowing them to watch....television. Lots of television. It's PBS, so at least they're learning something (supposedly), but still, it's not my first choice.

I am finding I am much more annoyed at petty things than ever I was. I watched inauguration coverage from 9am Monday until the evening. No matter if the guy is black or white or whatever color, the inauguration of a President is history in the making. I am fascinated with the behind-the-scenes look that you get when you watch it live. (Watching a stooped Jimmy Carter carry out his and Rosalyn's commemorative Lennox bowls in a shopping bag with Rosalyn 4 steps ahead of him reminded me of some poor sap at the mall.) Here we are, over 2 months after the end of the election, and nearly 2 years fully after this election season began and people are still bellyaching about this guy. What difference does it make now? He's in. Isn't our job to support him, even if we disagree with his politics? That's what some say about the war...we should support those serving, even if we disagree with the reason they are there.

Just annoyed. And the lemonade that I'm drinking seems to be disagreeing with the Frosted Flakes I had for breakfast...